Aww poor baby! /hugs!
Im in the same boat, husband wise. Once a year or so he'll have to fly around for work and its like I just cant sleep.
And its that Im scared or anything, youd think Id sleep easier with out the blanket tossing snore box, but nope. I just cant sleep!
Good call with your little ones, Im sorry your little girl has had depression problems - losing a grandma that way must be difficult.
I hope you slept, and if you didnt, take a nap! They make almost everything better ^_^
*sigh*
So like, Im sitting here, and its 2 : 20 am, and I just now heard from my husband, and I cant sleep.
A little back story, since I cant sleep.
When my son was born, I moved in with my mother and father in law to help out with things. Their house is HUGE and they both worked full time, and we decided to help each other out. I must admit that most of the help came from them, and they are both a blessing to me.
My mother inlaw passed away this past September. She had Pancreatic Cancer. Of course, my husband and his dad were both devastated, as were my children. Especially my daughter. I still cry to think of the poor dear, she was 2 and a half when she died, but those 2 and a half years were spent eating, sleeping, and living with her gramma. Shes just now coming around from it, but it breaks my heart still to think of such a young baby (and my baby at that) having to deal with this.
FAst forward some.
This past sunday we recieved a call that my husbands gramma (my mother in law's mother) passed away. She had colon cancer, and tho they successfully removed it, basically the surgery and such gave her Congestive Heart Failure. They drained the fluid and she was doing well, but passed away the next morning. She lived in Mo. Obviously, my kidneys shuddered at the thought of driving 15 hrs to go to the funeral. And anyway, my heart literally broke in half thinking of my poor baby girl having to see the body of a much loved gramma as well. I will add here that its not that I dont think my son (4) can handle it, or I feel less sympathy for him, tis not that at all. He just handles things way different than she, and bounces back like most 4 year olds do. My daughter does not. Im sorely afraid that shes gonna be Manic like myself, but I hope not. She has been severly depressed since Mom in law got sick, and shes just now coming away from it. So of course, I immediatly spoke with my hubby and decided Id stay with the kids. Soooooo .. to the point of all this blabber. He took a flight at 6pm tongiht with my father in law to go to Mo. Ive never been more than one night away from him, and needless to say, this is absolutly killing me. Im in a huge house alone, without him, and I cant sleep. *sigh* I know that its natural for families to be split at times, some daddies work away from home, etc. But thats not us. Its sort of an unsaid thing that both of us live off the other ones attention, love, and just seeing one another at the end of the day. This is gonna be one long week. /em wishes for Sunday morning to come.
Well, thanks for listening. I had to tell someone, or Id blow. Now maybe I can sleep.
:heart you guys,
nalla
Starry
21 years ago
Gilae
21 years ago
I hate sleeping without my husband too...when I've had to do it I generally stay up until dawn so it feels more like a nap. And what do I do in those hours between? Play EQ :)
Guest
21 years ago
I pretty much gave up on EQ, I cant keep up with the progress and flags and stuff since my pc gave out. I may come back one day, but not now. I have been playing AO tho (hey its free...) and its a big huge change, but to anyone that spends most of their non raiding time asking for a group or soloing (*cough*) then this game is pretty good for ya. You can do Team missions, or you can do Solo Missions. They are searched according to level and rewards, and you level pretty quick in it. /shrug. Ill probably end up playing until I get sick tongiht and have to go to bed. :)
Aziyade
21 years ago
Nalla, I am so sorry to hear about your hubbie's grandma. It sounds to me like your family is due some joy and good cheer and I hope you get them soon. I hope you got some sleep, too.
It probably won't come as any comfort to you but maybe thinking about this will take your mind off it for a moment. I normally don't get to sleep with my husband. He's German and until Homeland Security decides that 1. he's not a terrorist and 2. the marriage is legitimate, I only get to sleep with him for a few weeks at a time when he visits me or I visit him. Essentially, I get 3 weeks of bliss followed by several months of no bed hogging, blanket stealing but god-damn lonely slumber. *Le sigh*
It probably won't come as any comfort to you but maybe thinking about this will take your mind off it for a moment. I normally don't get to sleep with my husband. He's German and until Homeland Security decides that 1. he's not a terrorist and 2. the marriage is legitimate, I only get to sleep with him for a few weeks at a time when he visits me or I visit him. Essentially, I get 3 weeks of bliss followed by several months of no bed hogging, blanket stealing but god-damn lonely slumber. *Le sigh*
ROzbeans
21 years ago
Vebran leaving for 1 year totally devasted me. More than I thought it would. When he told me he got his 12 month duty I cried and cried and he couldnt understand why. So when he left and I'd wake up like a zombie, yell at my daughter (bless her heart she's a trooper) and then go to work, pick up the kiddo, go home and just stare at nothing all night, he finally understood. My depression lasted until for about 4 months or so. I did a complete 180, yelled at my friends (ask jenna, we had a huge fight during this and didnt speak for like 6 months), I had no patience with my daughter and couldnt talk about it with Veb. He would call and say, 'do you even miss me, why do i even call' totally misinterpreting my blah tone for something other than missing him despretely. Fuck I had to cut our yard. Pulled my muscle in my butt, the syatic or whatever..I broke down.
He came home in september and that first night in a hotel was akward, to say the least. He was a different person. Oh, to top this off, the month prior his sister decided to go apeshit and rock the family with her marital troubles and completely destroy their mother. His mother's side...they're quiet people. Who better than to defend mom then the daughter in law who's brown and has a chip on her shoulder the size of fucking kansas? So add that on to the depression as well.
In any case, I eased slowly out of it. Made things right with Jenna, quit eq, sold my house, apologized to my daughter and ended up moving up here 6 months early. Being 4 hrs apart is still difficult, more so than you'd think, but in April this will be over. So I sympathize with your pain, Nalla. Being apart, you'd think, would be great. Watch what you want, play what you want, eat what you want, hog the covers. I watch spongebob, eat chicken fingers and share 1/10th of the bed with the kid who takes up 9/10th's. If it wasn't for Catherine, I'd be a mess.
/hug I'm so sorry for your loss, but it'll be alright when the hubbo gets home =)
He came home in september and that first night in a hotel was akward, to say the least. He was a different person. Oh, to top this off, the month prior his sister decided to go apeshit and rock the family with her marital troubles and completely destroy their mother. His mother's side...they're quiet people. Who better than to defend mom then the daughter in law who's brown and has a chip on her shoulder the size of fucking kansas? So add that on to the depression as well.
In any case, I eased slowly out of it. Made things right with Jenna, quit eq, sold my house, apologized to my daughter and ended up moving up here 6 months early. Being 4 hrs apart is still difficult, more so than you'd think, but in April this will be over. So I sympathize with your pain, Nalla. Being apart, you'd think, would be great. Watch what you want, play what you want, eat what you want, hog the covers. I watch spongebob, eat chicken fingers and share 1/10th of the bed with the kid who takes up 9/10th's. If it wasn't for Catherine, I'd be a mess.
/hug I'm so sorry for your loss, but it'll be alright when the hubbo gets home =)
Guest
21 years ago
Gah. Well I do feel lots better hearing both your stories. I would HATE being away from my hubby that long. Well, Ill take that back. I just couldnt. Id go nuts. I guess you get used to it, but dang. Id cry every night for soo long. As Im sure both you gals do/did. At least hes coming home Sat. Well if all goes well. They still havent arrived at their destination, their flight was mega delayed because of the foggy weather we are having. Like looking through a cloud of smoke. hehe. Just pray that he gets home ok, if you guys will? Or well, the ones that do anyway :)
Edit: And I have to agree 100 percent with Mae. If I hadnt fell asleep rocking my daughter (she has an ear infection that wont leave, so she doesnt sleep well) then Id likely not have gone to sleep at all. Its amazing what your kids can do to lift (or lower haha) your mood.
Edit: And I have to agree 100 percent with Mae. If I hadnt fell asleep rocking my daughter (she has an ear infection that wont leave, so she doesnt sleep well) then Id likely not have gone to sleep at all. Its amazing what your kids can do to lift (or lower haha) your mood.
Guest
21 years ago
I feel your pain, Nalla. Sometimes I have to go out of town to meet with clients and if I ever do fall asleep it's because I've exhausted myself from crying. Just know the reunion will be so much sweeter when he comes home.
Guest
21 years ago
Thanks for the support gals, makes me feel better. Just being able to talk about it feels good too.
Only 3 more days!
:<3 :smooch
Only 3 more days!
:<3 :smooch
tamaelia
21 years ago
Hey Nalla :) Hope you are doing ok...nearly there now hun! The few times my hubby had to go away for work and such...I indulged myself with chocolate and sappy movies and EQ and books. I hope you found something to do too. *hugs*
immy
21 years ago
*hugs Nalla*
When I had my first baby I was still active duty AF, I got deployed 8 weeks after giving birth to him. My first baby, and I couldn't see him or hold him. I was devistated. Through loop holes in the military, I got out to raise him full time. Being away from a loved one is hard as hell, but makes you a stronger person in the long run.
I hope you're doing okay and hanging in there. *hugs again*
When I had my first baby I was still active duty AF, I got deployed 8 weeks after giving birth to him. My first baby, and I couldn't see him or hold him. I was devistated. Through loop holes in the military, I got out to raise him full time. Being away from a loved one is hard as hell, but makes you a stronger person in the long run.
I hope you're doing okay and hanging in there. *hugs again*